*shyish, beaming smile*

Iamsohappy.

:)

This evening i got to conduct NASA practice.

I'm Wide Awake, It's Mornin'

The sun came up with no conclusions
Flowers sleepin' in their beds
The city cemetary's hummin'
I'm wide awake, it's mornin'

I have my drugs, I have my woman
they keep away my loneliness
My parents, they have their religion
But sleep in seperate houses

I read the body count out of the paper
And now it's written all over my face
No one ever plans to sleep out in the gutter
Sometimes that just the most comfortable place

So I'm drinkin, breathin, writin, singin
Every day I'm on the clock
My mind races with all my longings
But can't keep up with what I got

And so I hope I don't sound too ungrateful
Well, history gave modern man
A telephone to talk to strangers
Machine guns and a camera lens

So when you're asked to fight a war thats over nothing
It's best to join the side thats gonna win
No ones sure how all of this got started
But we're gonna make 'em God damn certain how it's gonna end

Oh yah we will, oh yah we will!

Well I could have been a famous singer
If I had someone else's voice
But failures always sounded better
Let's fuck it up boys, make some noise!

The sun came up with no conclusins
Flowers sleepin' in their beds
The city cemetary's hummin'
I'm wide awake, it's mornin'!

-Bright Eyes "Road to Joy"

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I think we are still trying to judge ourselves by the standards of the generation before us.
We'll be succesful when we have a bigger car and house than those belonging to the succesful 40-somethings we know.
We'll be proper femenists when we acomplish everything left on the To Do List of 40-something women.
We'll good parents when we finally find the solution to balancing home and career so that we can to do both to the max.
Where buying is good, but selling is better, and not needing anything from anyone is best.
When we scientifically apply post-modernism then we will be enlightened.
Only when we have pinstripes and world power, but peace and a healthy environment as well.
We'll be 40-something with wrinkles and high blood preasure, but botox and diovan as well.
And we won't make choices, And we'll have it all.

Yay! :)

I now have dsl and wi-fi at my house.
:D

GGRRRRRR!!!

LOST sooooooooooooo upset me tonight.

:( *very sad face*

One of the reasons a female on a Christian campus acquires a male is that she will have someone cute to sit next to in required chapels that isn't female; sometimes purely to have any someone for these occasions. And that is simply that.

Sometimes I see a person and they seem like the perfect archtype of an idea and I wonder, does that have to be intentional? Or can someone become a symbol accidentally?

Pro/Con List for Law School

This is what I have written so far on my Pro/Con List but I would love to get more.
So, talk to me world! what would be the good and bad of me going to law school and what do you think I should do? (If it works for Percarious Prof, what not me?)

PRO:
*Being able to support myself at a level of high comfort
*"Proof" of intellignece/validity of self
*Great Power to do good
*Really cool business cards
*"Ms. H___ S___ J.D.
*The stabilizing impact of legal thinking on my frequently overly abstracted mind

CON:
*Loss of self-identity
*Hours spent doing mice-type research
*High stress/pressure
*Potentially lossing all of my current close, non-familial relationships (good-bye Frankie)
*High power attorney doesn't really fit my fanatisy life, but what actually does?

I really, really wanted to post something really, really sickeningly sweet here, but that I thought of my poor readers. So, I didn't, but know that I thought it.

People say I'm crazy doing what I'm doing,
Well they give me all kinds of warnings to save me from ruin,
When I say that I'm o.k. they look at me kind of strange,
Surely your not happy now you no longer play the game,

People say I'm lazy dreaming my life away,
Well they give me all kinds of advice designed to enlighten me,
When I tell that I'm doing Fine watching shadows on the wall,
Don't you miss the big time boy you're no longer on the ball?

I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round,
I really love to watch them roll,
No longer riding on the merry-go-round,
I just had to let it go,

People asking questions lost in confusion,
Well I tell them there's no problem,
Only solutions,
Well they shake their heads and they look at me as if I've lost my mind,
I tell them there's no hurry...
I'm just sitting here doing time,

I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round,
I really love to watch them roll,
No longer riding on the merry-go-round,
I just had to let it go.

John Lennon "Watching the Wheels Go By"

Well, I'm having one of those slit-my-wrists-kinda'-mornings.
how's everyone else?

Today I have watercolor lips. :)

I think I want an artist's flat.

Any offers?

"It is not possible, however, for the same thing always to give pleasure, because our nature is not ismple: it contains a separate element which renders us mortal, so that wehn one of these elments is active it is counter to the nature of the other; and when they are exactly balanced, the effect is something that is not felt to be either painful or pleasurable."
Aristotle, The Nicomachean Ethics, 1154b lines 22-27

It's official.

I'm suffocating

17 units that I've been treating like 10.

Note to self: must find magic black hole that I can crawl into and close behind me. Do not emerge until work is completed.

*sniff!*